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| 11:13am 03/10/2005 |
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to anyone who cares, im giving up on this LJ and have created a new one.
my attempts in the past have failed so im embarking on a new LJ adventure.
the new user name is d00dguy. add it up. lets make this one fun. or something closely resembling it.
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| 08:47pm 10/05/2005 |
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mood:  tired music: my band coming through the speakers in the studio
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We're almost done with the 3rd day of recording our full length.
For those of you who didnt know, im in a band called Ruining Tomorrow. And i moved to Boston.
You can check us out on myspace at www.myspace.com/ruiningtomorrow.
Anyway, we're recording our first full length cd and then starting a huge nation wide tour. Just thought id pop back on here and say hello.
hello.
chris |
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| 01:55pm 18/01/2005 |
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mood:  worried
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*taken from another entry because im too lazy to type it again*
Here's a phone call you never want to get from your parents.
Parents: "if anything were to happen to us, would you take care of your little brother?"
Chris; "uhhh yeah(worried at this point). why whats up?"
Apparenty my dad just found out that he has Hepatitis C. Probably from a blood transfusion he had back in the 70's. they dont know whats going on yet, so he said not to be worried. But how can i not be worried when people DIE from that all the time? Its just not something i wanted to have happen. Ive already lost my mom. Theres no way in hell im losing my dad.
Fuck.
I have work to do.
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| 02:45pm 22/12/2004 |
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"Stay On The Phone"
One waitress
Outside of,
Phone booth, South Carolina
Sits, keeps killing time
Rolls her eyes
Roll of dimes
Speak of this sick surrounding sin
Tears me from limb to limb, within
I don't know how to let it go
This far away from home
One word was mistaken
Context that it was taken from
Write it down
Must be sound
Must be true
I hope you can hear me
My only sanctuary asks
Why am I here?
Why aren't I home?
As the line builds for the phone
I want it all
Work to a fault
That breaks us in two
And always at play
The end of the day
I'm alone and so are you
Old stories
Gas stations
Repeating conversations
Still, I can't speak long
The show has to go on
At best I, might question
The focus of my attention
Though, you know that I could bring it down
I want it all
Work to a fault
That breaks us in two
And always at play
The end of the day
I'm alone and so are you
One waitress, invading
But I'm content to make her wait
It's all I have
So far from home
Oh please stay on the phone |
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| welcome..this is where i talk alot. |
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| 12:30pm 22/12/2004 |
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mood: FADED music: The New Amsterdams - Stay On The Phone
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Today hasnt been too awful.
-I got to work to see that Jack and Tim had got me a christmas present. It was a $20 Best Buy gift card, stuck on a paper ornament, taped to my monitor. I kinda feel bad since i havent gotten them anything yet, and christmas is almost here. I'll just surprise them with late presents.
-We're still putting the final touches on my place. Since Eric moved in, we added alot of nice looking stuff to the apartment. AND the girl that visiting him for 2 weeks from japan, cleaned the hell out of EVERYTHING. even went through my dirty clothes and folded everything else. The first thing she did after being on a 24 hour flight, was walk right into the kitchen and do the dishes. But with everything good thing, comes something terrible. Apparently she got mad at Eric for some bullshit, and ended up throwing a fit all night and ignored everyone. She even walked out of the apartment at one point. Since she hates weed smoke, me and Eric made up a reason to go outside to my car so we could smoke. After 2 bowls of some super chronic, we go upstairs to chill. I finally get to bed after we started watching Blade 2. we all passed out before we even finshed the movie.
-All we've been listening to for the last week, is Big L. Im hooked.
-I weighed myself yesterday morning, and to my utter amazement, discovered that im finally back under 175. Ive been struggling to loose that weight for almost a year. So far, since last Novemeber, ive lost 40 pounds. yay me.
-candy makes you dandy :-)
-we decided that i should get my skater thug name, C-Dub, tattooed on me somewhere, Eric had a dream that i had C-Dub tattooed on my neck. It would be my first and probably last, joke tattoo. I want a guy doing a flip trick on a skateboard, and the graphic on the deck will say C-Dub. And it just so happens that my initials are CDB. so it has some point behind it. Now i just have to convince him to get one. Maybe if i told him i'd pay for it...
-i just looked at my post, and i realized i type my entries like im writing an essay.
-I also just realized what time it was, and how i have alot of important work to do. Yay for procrastinating.......still procastinating....*crickets chirping*....fuck..alright, i gotta do this. peace out rabbit.
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| 05:49am 20/12/2004 |
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mood: disappointed music: Big L - The Heist
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ill be damned if it happens again.
march 1st, im the fuck outta here.
peace. |
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| Ninja Cakes And Garbage Water |
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| 11:30am 17/12/2004 |
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mood:  drained music: The Roots - Respond React
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-so im sitting here feeling like im about to die.
my body absolutely hates me right now.
out of the last 72 hours, ive slept maybe 8 hours of it. im starting to loose track.
-because ive been so tired, i slept through my alarm going off this morning. either that, or its broken. so i was 3 hours late.
-Eric is moving in this weekend. Sharing a studio apartment is going to be rough, but its worth it when i think of how much money ill be saving by letting him stay with me. And we've gotten really serious about the band thing, so im hoping that happens soon.
-im wearing a tie at work for the first time ever. needless to say, people are surprised. Every time my boss Tim walks by my desk he says something about it. He just now stopped and looked at me and said "he's wearing a tie...god bless america." does that give you a hint of how much i under dress here?
-i have a craving for chicken quesadillas from taco bell.
-My supervisor just yelled at me for not having my time card right. nazi.
-Starting in january, im gonna start a workout/phyiscal training program to help heal my legs and to get myself back in shape. As soon as spring time hits, and the cold goes away, im coming back into skating with full force.
time to go stuff my face. be back later. bitches. |
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| 01:58pm 09/12/2004 |
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thats all. good day. |
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| Crowbars and Cheesecake |
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| 01:00pm 09/12/2004 |
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mood:  chipper
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Since around 4pm yesterday, my life just got a whole lot better.
Eric calls, asking if he can stay with me for a couple of months. Now this is extremely awesome for me because he said he would pay half of my rent and bills, keep food in the apartment, and we'll always have herb to smoke. Its gonna save me a ton of money. This was the break ive been wating for. Besides weed and money being around, he'll be bringing up his Bose surround sound system to add to my stereo system, another big ass tv, someone else that plays guitar, and someone else that plays Marvel vs Capcom 2. For the first time in a long time, i feel like theres some kind of order to my life now. Im actually very happy with things right now. My life is finally starting to become organized. i wont be struggling with money, ill always have food, bills will be paid. Things will be fine. Its about damn time.
On to other good news.
Tori will be here from friday till tuesday! im very much excited. We're gonna do lots of christmas shopping, and i get to show her around the city. Playing host is fun.
This is my christmas list, if i had my way:
1.Tori wearing nothing but a santa hat. <3
2.Sony DSC F828 w/ advanced users kit. (http://www.dpreview.com/reviews/sonydscf828/)
3.Epiphone Goth G-400 Collection (http://www.epiphone.com/default.asp?ProductID=35&CollectionID=5)
4.A new set of calligraphy pens, and ink.
5.A set of Tech Decks to play with while im at work.
6.Final Fantasy 7 & 8 for PC.
7.Some new clothes.
8.Herb...lots of herb.
thats all i can think of. |
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| a splash of cold water on the face, a few tokes of the bowl. and im ready to go. |
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| 11:00am 08/12/2004 |
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music: Taking Back Sunday - Set Phasers To Stun
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My timeline of events for today.
4:18 -Alarm goes off. Smash the snooze button.
4:28 -Finally get my ass out of bed.
4:30 -Look in the mirror at my crazy, fucked up hair. Laugh at how i didnt dry it before i went to bed.
4:45 -Done getting ready.
4:46 -See my bong sitting on the computer desk. Luckily, there are some leftovers from last night.
4:47 -Blaze.
5:06 -Stoned.
5:07 -Put down the bong. Realize that i was supposed to leave 7 minutes earlier.
5:30 -Make it to work exactly by 5:30. I manage to cut 10 minutes off the time it takes me to get there.
5:30-11 -Sitting here doing absolutely nothing. Reading a book. Have a massive headache. Need to smoke more. Talking to Jon about Amsterdamn. Making me want to smoke even more. Too bad im out of herb. :-(
11 -Lunch Time (easy mac.mmmm) |
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| Today has been alright for a change |
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| 08:14am 07/12/2004 |
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mood: chipper music: UnderOATH - Heart of Stone
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So far this is how today has gone.
-I got desperate and scraped some year old resin out of my glass piece this morning and caught a high before work. so that instantly put me in a good mood.
-Ive actually had a smile on my face for most of the morning. Mainly because i heard this guy struggling in the bath room and generating some very unpleasant noises. And being as high as i was, i had to run out of the bathroom so i wouldnt laugh out loud.
-I had a mountain dew and easy mac for breakfast. now im all full and tired. And i only spent $1. Thanks to the wonderful Tori for the easy mac.
-Its raining outside which for some reason makes today better. It makes me want to go home and write music and play my guitar.
-I decided that im going to devote alot of my free time at work to working my website. I'm curently taking suggestions for names, and if anyone knows of any good web space providers, please let me know.
-Ive also decided that sometime in the not so distant future, im going to either go to bartending school, or try and get certified as a piercer. Just for some money on the side, and to get some other experience.
-Realizing how horrible my breakfast was for me, ive since then consumed about 80 ounces of water. Now im waiting to suffer the repricusions of all of this H20 intake. Luckly, the bathroom is but a few feet from the door of my office.
Thats all for now. I have a book that needs reading and some napping is to be done. |
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| The Impact of Reason |
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| 10:36am 06/12/2004 |
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mood:  okay music: The Council of Elrond - The Lord Of The Rings soundtrack
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Theres no order to this post. Just thought id start typing. So far..its taken me 2 hours to get to the end of this.
-So i discover that sitting alone grants me time to ponder the less obvious facets of my life.
-After being gone all weekend, i come home to realize how empty my apartment actually is, and the horrible reality of living alone takes over. Being away from her is hard. But ill be fine. I always am.
-Not having the internet at home has made me appreciate the other little things that i tend to take for granted.
-Because im not rotting online all day anymore, ive gotten better at playing the guitar, have kept my apartment cleaner, have read several large novels, have paid more attention to my cat, and just over all, ive felt better about myself.
-For the first time in a long time, i feel cared for and appreciated. People often underestimate the power of human touch or the strength of someones words.
-Ive also discovered that Starbucks Doubleshots feel similar to doing cocaine. And much like the drug, these drinks leave you wanting more. Which explains why i drank 4 in one sitting.
-I havent seriously skated in almost a month. I dont know if i should be glad or be worried. In one had i have my deteriorating health, and in the other is a hobby ive had since i was a child. The choice to continue is a difficult one.
So yeah. It took me 2 1/2 hours to get this done. Im glad i have the attention span of a rock. |
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| BOO! |
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| 11:20am 19/11/2004 |
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hello fellow LJ patrons.
Im back just to say a big FUCK YOU to a certain person out there. If you can guess who you are, then yay for you.
Other than that, im in a somewhat delightful mood. Im getting off work early. Im gonna go home and sleeeeeep, because i got an awesome 30 minutes of sleep last night.
I discovered that when you mix sour cream and green sauce, it makes for an amazing dip.
Fuck waiting 10 minutes, im outta here. PEACE NUKKAS!
The Chris |
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| This Is Continued From Yesterday |
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| 05:37am 19/10/2004 |
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mood: sleepy music: Groovie Ghoulies - Dont Make Me Kill You
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Just adding to my list of events since i have more time.
My "Arcade Game Issue" - (as requested by Sal)
My friend Eric and I have decided to purchase the Marvel Vs. Capcom 2 arcade cabinet from the Springfield mall. We just have to save the 1200 dollars it costs. And then the question that is most common is "how is chris going to get a full sized arcade cabinet, up to his 17th floor studio apartment?" Quite easily actually. The front half of the cabinet, where the buttons and coin slots are, unscrews and detatches from the rest of the unit, making it quite slim, and able to fit easily through my front door. The arcade employees will dissasemble the game, and get it out to the back of the mall for us to pick up. And as far as we know, Eric can use his fathers old ass van to transport the bulk of the game. And all we need is a dolly and the elevator will take care of the rest.
Fin.
Update on my new cat
As you may or may not know, i got a new cat yesterday. Shes a blue russian breed, and has grey fur and white paws. And shes 2 years old.
I decided to name her Mary Jane. She's now officially one of the crew.
When i first brought her into my apartment, she waiting a minute to come out of her carrier. For some reason, she ran straight into the bathroom and just layed behind the open door, in the corner of my bathroom. And being that she goes ape shit if you try and pick her up, i wasnt about to try and move her. So i left her litter box and food/water dishes in there with her, and gave her a towel to lay on.
Then Eric and Sarah get here. I warned Sarah not to pick her up, for fear of being maimed, and to my utter amazement, Mary Jane actually let Sarah pick her up. (this is a shock to me because it took two people to get her in her carrier. AND she drew blood on both of them.) Eventually the cat wanted down. I closed the bathroom door so she would be forced to wander around the place. She got pretty adventerous, really fast. We were smoking and playing x box, and the cat came up to us a few times. Mostly it was Sarah because Sarah wasnt occupied with anything else.
I left for a while and came back, and the cat was on my bed. So i can see shes getting comfortable fast. After Eric and Sarah left, she followed me around while i cleaned up and got ready for bed. And as soon as i got into bed, she was right up there with me. And naturally she kept me up all night, wanting to cuddle and rub her face on my hands.
I think the sound of the shower scared her this morning, because when i came out of the bathroom, she was hiding under my chair, and wouldnt come out. And every time i came near her, she ran off. Eventually i calmed her down, but she wouldnt come out from under the chair. Thats where i left her this morning. So hopefully she stops being a freak and comes out sometime.
Im just worried that shes gonna wreck my pad while im gone.
heres the link to my photobucket. the link with her pictures is in the Mary Jane folder. |
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| Yo Niggas! Chris is bizzack! |
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| 01:53pm 18/10/2004 |
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mood: apathetic music: Underoath
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Ive been out of the LJ thing for a while. Ive been busy with myspace. Here's a quick list of events that have occured recently. Id write about it all, but id be here all day, and im leaving work in 30 minutes.
Things have been pretty shitty. Nothing much has changed. Prepare to be bored.
- I had a girlfriend for 6 days. haha. go me. To make a long story short, she "didnt have time for me because of work. and any free time she had, she wanted to spend it with her friends." fucking shite. oh well. im better off alone.
- Ive started my quest for the "American Dream." (those of you cool enough to tell me where thats from and what im actually doing, will receive, 1..yes..1 hug from yours truly.)
- Im getting a cat today. Not sure what to name her. Either a funny guys name, or a name that has a not so obvious drug reference.
Ill finish this later. Time to dip.
peace.
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| HOLY UPDATE BATMAN! |
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| 11:00am 15/09/2004 |
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Im bored at work, in a bad mood and have nothing else better to do. Its been like 2 and half months since i posted anything on here. uhhh. i guess nothing really unusual has happened..well..depending on what you consider unusual. i just recently got back from my vacation in boston. i was there for a week and a half and ive never had such a good time in my life. i think i wanna move up there when my lease is up. im not sure yet.
so im home. now its back to my old routine: skateboarding, trying to play music, and the "marijuana and a movie" nights with erik and whatever woman friend he brings over.
theres been alot of girl drama like usual. there i was, actually trying to settle down and find a girlfriend, and then all of this mess gets dumped in my lap. to sum it up, lots of accusing, yelling, arguing and tears. and for what? bah! whatever. i think kevin put it best, "i want a girl who i can wake up to every morning, or someone who i can count on to be there." i was high so i dont remember exactly what he said, but you get the idea. he has a good point. im tired of these little flings and one night stands. id like some consistency for a change. it'll happen eventually. no need to rush things. I guess thats all for now. Peace.
Chris
http://photobucket.com/albums/v87/FallXChildren/Boston/
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| 09:35am 06/07/2004 |
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so things are starting to look a little better. that whole bullshit situation with the girl is pretty much resolved. and when i say resolved, i mean we havent talked to eachother in days. im pretty bummed that she has my copy of Return of the King though. I sent her a message telling her she can have it. I probably wouldnt get it back anyway.
On another good note, me and erik are starting a band. so far, his friend Phil is going to be our drummer and Sal is gonna play guitar. Erik is going to be doing most of the vocals and lead guitar, but he says on top of me playing bass, he'd like me to do some of the vocals. And i think he said something about Sal doing some too.
We're supposed to go up to Atomic today and window shop for our instruments. He says he knows the owners and can get us hooked up. so hopefully when friday comes around, ill leave there with a bass and a bass cabinet.
I got him listening to From Autumn to Ashes, and now he loves them. He said thats what he'd like us to sound like. So i guess we'll be doing a melodic hardcore/screamo band. we'll see how it all works out.
oh, im taking suggestions on names for the band. we already decided not to be one of the "The" bands. |
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| MORE OF LIFES TOUGH DECISIONS |
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| 12:21pm 30/06/2004 |
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mood:  pissed off music: Final Jeopardy music
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So ive been thinking of moving again.
Ive just been in this slump lately. I havent been too happy here, and i dont have any friends. The one good friend i do have may be leaving, and then the skate park where i spend all of my free time, may or may not be getting shut down. It wouldnt be for a while, but still, its just the fact that the only things i have here keeping me happy might be dissapearing. So what will i have left. Work?
On one hand i have Alex and Philly.
I know he wants to move really bad, and Philly would definitly be awesome.
Love Park is there, and the city is beautiful.
BUT he wouldnt be coming out here till august of 05, and im not too sure i wanna live around here for that much longer.
On the other hand i have my family and Cali, well, most of my family.
Ive been really thinking about moving back home lately.
Not so much to the same area, but a different part of cali, just to try and experience another part of the state. I know i could get a decent job in southern cali. and i sure as hell know enough people down there. My skating would definately progress too.
But then again, id have to think about how to get all of my shit over there, find a place to live, AND drive all the way across the country....again.
I know in the end its my choice, but its just so damn hard. Dissapoint my bestfriend, give up my dream of living near Love Park, but be happy out in cali? or suffer through more of the east coast shit, make alex happy and fufill my dream. |
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